Do You Live Your Theology?

Have you ever taken the time to examine your beliefs and see how they work themselves out in your life? This last year has been a time of testing and growing in this area. I can tell you my theology but when tested, my life does not always line up with my beliefs. I was faced with the question of do I live my theology?

This was hard to come to grips with, especially when it came to trusting God. I thought I trusted God but my actions did not always portray this. I said I wanted more of Him but how could I when I did not trust Him? I only saw what I was to do. I did not understand love and grace. They had become cliché. I felt safer in fear. I acted as if I was only a servant of God and not a daughter of God. I did not understand who God actually is.

God was not content to leave me in this sad state. I do not know when I switched to not trusting God; I only knew that needed to change. Through time in the Word, prayer and counsel from friends and mentors, God began to change my heart. He is giving me a deeper understanding of who He is and who He sees me as. He is showing me how to respond out of that. He is showing me His trustworthiness. He is teaching me to rely on Him. I am coming face-to-face with the real God not the god I conjured up in my head. He is removing the projections I forced on Him and showing me who He really is. He is God but He is safe. He is trustworthy. He is loving. He is joyful and adventurous. He is a good Father.

Knowing who my Father is makes all the difference. Instead of responding out of fear, or not responding because of fear, I see the Father beside me. I need to keep my eyes on my Father and not my circumstances (which is sometimes easier said than done). It is when I take my eyes off of Him that I experience anxiety and fear and emotional turmoil. I need to worship Him through my circumstances. I am not saying it will be easy but I will be okay as long as I am with my Father. He says He will never leave me (Mat 28:20). He does not lie.

I’ll leave you with these questions: How are you doing with your theology? Do your actions mirror your beliefs?