Last Minute Miracle

These last several months, God has been growing and has been testing my ability to trust Him. He has been showing me that I actually do not trust Him like I say I do. My actions do not match my words. I say I trust God but then when it comes to backing it with my actions, I fail. I panic and stress and worry that God’s faithfulness does not extend to me. I worry that His provision will not cover me in this area, though for others I believe it does absolutely.

My roommate and I have been praying for a job for me since I graduated about seven months ago. I got a temp assignment that lasted about a month and then there was nothing for two months. It was not for lack of trying. I was getting interviews but nothing happened beyond that. I wondered if it had to do with my interviewing skills but this was not always the case either because I would get call-back interviews or be told the interview went well.

This past Friday was the deadline I had before I would need to move in with my parents. Last week was a really difficult week of waiting. There was much prayer, many tears and a deep struggle in my heart to hold on—to what I was not sure any more. It did not make sense as to why God would want me to move but I was beginning to believe it was the most viable option. There are so many things I believe God wants me to be a part of here that I could not understand why God would want me to move. My logic was telling me to hold onto the belief that God still wanted me here and would provide something for me. The worry in me said I should come up with a plan to move.

I was reading Isaiah 61 most of the week and kept coming back to verse 3 (sorry this is out of context): “... a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair...” So instead of spending the week worrying about what the outcome of Friday would be, I spend most of the week worshiping and praising God. Wednesday I worshiped and danced around the living room with God. It was a really lightening time. The worry could not hang on me when I was focusing on God. Thursday was a little harder to do so. Friday I knew I could do nothing but worship, pray and spend time in the Word otherwise I would be too tempted to try to figure out which way the day would go or what I could have done differently.

It was around two o’clock Friday afternoon when I got a call from my temp agency saying I did not get the position they put me up for. I got a little sad at this point. But then there was a “however.” However they had a position that would start Monday I did not need to interview for so if I wanted it I could have it. I was trying not to laugh at this point. “You’ve got to be kidding God. Really? You are really giving me a job?” It was one of those moments where you want to dance and laugh but aren’t quite sure how to react all at the same time. It was a giddy moment of realizing I was part of a miracle.

I am deeply relieved to not have to move. I am sad I did not stand firm throughout the entire time of testing but greatly encouraged my roommate was able to. My friends were greatly encouraging in helping me hold onto hope.

Even though this testing is over for a time, I know God will continue to test and to grow me in this. While the job is expected to end in about a month, I know God will provide for me. How cool is it that He cares about us enough to take care of our immediate needs!

“I have chosen you and have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand” (Isa 41:10).